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Heartstabber: Confessions of a Goth Unicorn

by Helena-Regina

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    First release/side project of Helena-Regina, "Heartstabber: Confessions of a Goth Unicorn" goes from heartfelt love songs to eccentric stories, using Helena-Regina's sometimes rough and tough vocals as well as her sweeter, more story-telling sound. A fun, explorative, sometimes unfinished album recorded in bed between classes.
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1.
The man with no face Sits in my brain He taunts me with skin on the floor The man with no face Has another place Where he eats caviar and drinks gin I want to be like him And so I can carve 
My face away with a blade Go go flesh fall away Go away and don’t come back again I’m a princess with bones showing through I’ll lean over and kiss you Man With no face How do you whistle With no tongue Something tells me it’s no fun I want to touch your exposed teeth Pull them out and I’ll make you believe 
The woman with no face I’ll take it and replace Go go flesh fall away Go away and don’t come back again I’m a princess with bones showing through I’ll lean over and kiss you Man With no face
2.
Nom Nom Nom 02:32
Heart full of sugar Lips made of sweets I can’t help wanting to eat I died a few weeks back It hurt like a bitch But you can stop the itch Human piñata Full of candy blood I’ll take a bite And then I’ll be good Nom Nom Nom 
There goes your brain 
Nom Nom Nom Aren’t you glad I came? Anyone who says 
I can’t see The monster coming from me Doesn’t have a virus Inside their brain Making their cravings insane Human piñata Full of candy blood I’ll take a bite and then I’ll be good Nom Nom Nom There goes your brain Nom Nom Nom Aren’t you glad I came? You taste so good Kind of like chicken 
i’m vaguely aware You’re also good-looking If I was alive I’d take you on a date Too bad that’s not your fate… Human piñata 
Full of candy blood I’ll take a bite and then I’ll be good 
Nom Nom Nom There goes your brain Nom Nom Nom Aren’t you glad I came?
3.
Would you like a song to explain How I sparkle through the pain Take my balloon and pop it with a pin Take my pretty and turn it to sin Would you like a song to explain How I’m so happy if we’re all the same I’m filled with darkness and jelly bean blood But I’m sweet like a popsicle melted in the sun I could tell you how I don’t see the point But I fill up the holes with a sticky mix of lies Smile smile pictures baby baby boy Take your poison and play with your toys Bubble gum Bubble gum Give me a bubble gun Let me fill it with happiness and insulin Counteract the sugar Fill it up with anthrax Bubble gum Bubble gum Pop Pop Pop Pop Pop Pop Come in to my room of cellophane teddy bears with missing limbs and paper planes Little bits of shattered shimmering glass or saccharine candy hearts which look the same Pink and peppy what a shock Black primordial ooze stains my socks I’m so happy and I’m so kind Keep you warm and safe inside my mind Bubble gum Bubble gum Give me a Bubble gun Let me fill it with happiness and insulin Counteract the sugar Fill it up with anthrax Bubble Gum Bubble Gum Pop Pop Pop Pop Pop Pop Did I upset you With my ray of sunshine I’ll take your future And replace it with mine Bubble Gum Bubble Gum Give me a Bubble gun Let me fill it up with happiness and insulin Counteract the sugar Fill it up with anthrax Bubble Gum Bubble Gum Pop Pop Pop Pop Pop Pop
4.
Everyone wants to be the final girl Brave and strong and destined not to fail Everyone one she knows is dead But suddenly she has a clear head Stabbing the killer in the chest She doesn’t seem to care that her best friends and her boy aren’t there She’s covered in blood and ready to fight For the truth and what she knows is right 
That’s the only way to survive In a story that is not quite real life Follow the rules Don’t get caught And most importantly You must be hot But I don’t want to be a final girl Make me the killer I won’t ever really die I’ll slash with my chainsaw And I’ll smile as they die Make me the killer 
You won’t regret it There’s more than one way to live to the end And I have a foolproof plan And besides, why aren’t there more female killers anyways? She ducks behind a bunch of boxes And thinks she’s invisible to the monsters Who chased her there in the first place But she’s the hero so it doesn’t really count Don’t go into that room and die Oh god aren’t they oh so dumb It’s like they want the killer to come And nail them to the ceiling in scene one but I don’t want to be a final girl Make me the killer I won’t ever really die I’ll slash with my chainsaw And I’ll smile as they die Make me the killer You won’t regret it There’s more than one way to live to the end and I have a foolproof plan And besides why aren’t there more female killers anyways? Die Die Die… (repeat)
5.
Piranha in the water Piranha in the water Piranha in the water Won’t you bite me soon Feed on my red On my desperation Take on my tears And my failed ambition Smell all my actions As they fall on deaf ears Bleed me down Under the pretty piers Gnaw on my bones Feast on my flesh Take the beauty queen Chomp on her breast Make us all equals In the murky fray Take us down below In this bloody bay Piranha in the water Piranha in the water Piranha in the water Won’t you bite me soon Whip up the water Create the foam Drown me today I won’t go home Under the sea Where the mermaids play Siren calls Me down far away kill me with kisses Little teeth that scratch Make it hurt So I know it lasts Rip me to shreds Digest my soul Shipwreck me Like a pirate’s broken hull Piranha in the water Piranha in the water Piranha in the water Won’t you bite me soon
6.
I'm sitting on the front steps, a flower in my palm, an empty headed promise falling onto the lawn. I've been such a dreamer can't seem to see the truth, suns never set in technicolor, birds don't sing up on the roof. I thought that you loved me. I said I saw it in your eyes. Holding me in your arms, I thought that this was right! Unicorns don't live in the real world. Romeo was just a fairy tale. Petals don't go falling off of roses, just to land and nestle in your hair. people use others just to feel loved. To feel that they are the one. But Unicorns don't bring us rainbows. And broken hearts are left behind. My mother never really understands. She seeing me cryin' on the porch. But ever word she says burns like a flaming torch. Burned beyond repair. Smoke is in the air. Cars are speeding past my ear. But your sweet voice is all I hear. Telling me your sorry, But I know your not. Wishing that the memories could be forgot. But Unicorns don't live in the real world. Romeo was just a fairy tale. Petals dont go falling off of roses, just to go and land in your hair. People use others just to feel loved. To feel that they are the one. But Unicorns don't bring us rainbows. And broken hearts are left behind. The night is falling. Onto me. But your lips are in my hair. My arm touches your face but falls through the clouds, Champange too poisoned and rotten to drink. Because Unicorns don't live in the real world. Romeo was just a fairy tale. Petals dont go falling off of roses, just to go and land in your hair. People use others just to feel loved. To feel that they are the one. But Unicorns don't bring us rainbows. And broken hearts are left behind. My broken heart was left behind.
7.
Heartstabber 02:43
I’m a heart breaker Heart stabber Come and get it While it’s warm Now Baby I’m a Heart wrecker Heart stabber Rip it out Keep you torn Make you wish you weren’t born (3) What did you think the horn was for?
On my forehead pure and white Did You think I’d keep it clean Or use it to make you bleed tonight What did you think a unicorn wants?
Hope and peace and a world complete Or did I dream of a horn up the ass Of the world who keeps putting me last I’m a heart breaker Heart stabber Come and get it While it’s warm Now Baby I’m a Heart wrecker Heart stabber Rip it out 
Keep you torn Make you wish you weren’t born (3) Why you think I live in your fantasies I’m not a wet dream come and touch me See how far you get messing with the truth I’m a sparkling nightmare coming straight for you Blood shimmers in the moonlight Like a piece of bright green kryptonite Didn’t your daddy tell you pretty things bite I’m a pretty pony you don’t want in your sight I’m a heart breaker Heart stabber Come and get it While it’s warm Now Baby I’m a Heart wrecker Heart stabber Rip it out 
Keep you torn Make you wish you weren’t born (3) Stab Stab Stab Look at your heart Stab Stab Stab Baby are you all right Stab Stab Stab I might have gone to far Stab Stab Stab I guess my heart is way too dark I’m a heart breaker Heart stabber Come and get it While it’s warm Now Baby I’m a Heart wrecker Heart stabber Rip it out 
Keep you torn Make you wish you weren’t born
8.
Why do they never talk about how hard it is To walk with one shoe? Let alone run down the stairs, But it’s midnight so I guess no one cares It would be bad if they saw that she Pretty as a picture, was really nothing to see Average and normal, Just a one shoed version of me Princesses aren’t average or bare They come from broken homes and despair Covered in ashes and all alone But after the second act they’ve got the palace to roam Carriages from pumpkins Horse from a mouse Pick up that chin No need to pout Aren’t you so happy Next to a Prince When you said you wanted better Isn’t that what you meant? (x2) Now you’re in the palace, still alone Does your prince, does he even know you’re home No more mice because he set traps Is your perfect life about to collapse? Call on your godmother, no reply Wait in your room for your charming guy He doesn’t even look you in the face If you’re the winner why are you in second place? I would take your life if he was true Aren’t I better and fairer than you Why aren’t me struggles as good as yours Why aren’t my feet the perfect size fours? Carriages from pumpkins Horse from a mouse Pick up that chin No need to pout Aren’t you so happy Next to a Prince When you said you wanted better Isn’t that what you meant? (x3)
9.
Snow Queen 03:26
The glass is so fogged up I can barely see Use my fingers to trace a memory Sitting in our old car with the ripped up parts I’m surprised the engine even starts Face forward clutching at the seat My parents, my sister, and I barely even speak I never listen to the fighting, too busy fighting me Staring in the rear-view, staring into fallacy When hell froze over, I froze myself One day I’ll be pretty, and I’ll know I did well I’m supposed to be thawing out now This shard of ice is too deep I’m afraid if I melt it out now The only thing melting will be me I’m seventeen, looking at a magazine See a face prettier than I’ve ever seen Her eyes are blue like glaciers And mine are the color of mud Tell myself I’ll be like her when I’m done Even as I find my body fades away I’m afraid to look at you or hear what you say You might see all the things I want to hide If you saw them I’d hibernate even more inside I’m supposed to be thawing out now This shard of ice is too deep I’m afraid if I melt it out now The only thing melting will be me Let the snow fall Let the mirror shatter Let the snowflakes Make me their Queen Let the snow fall Let the mirror shatter Let the snowflakes Make me their Queen Let the snow fall (I’m supposed to be thawing out now) Let the mirror shatter (This shard of ice is too deep) Let the snowflakes (I’m afraid if I melt it out now) Make me their Queen (Only thing melting will be me) Make me their Queen (will be me) Make me their Queen (will be me) Make me their Queen Make them melt me
10.
Doing Okay 02:58
He takes me on a first date to a graveyard Where the spirits and the damned all wander near I’m dressed up to the nines To hide my nerves inside I learn on him as the stars all start to shine He sits back in the car and says that it’s hard He’s never like a girl in this way and I hold his hand Try to pretend 
That I know exactly what to say Take him on a walk in the evening End up in a forest with the darkness and the trees Sitting on the steps of a ruin falling down So vulnerable 
No turning back now And we’re doing okay We’re doing okay I’m not normal I’m not perfect I’m not like other girls And I warn him I’ve got poison And I’m trying to get it out But he says We’re doing okay And we’re doing okay Second date and I’m painted green I’m so worried that others won’t get me And when I break down he gives me his hand Tells me I’ll get through Pull me out of the quicksand Sitting in his car again he says he doesn’t know Exactly how this part of going out is supposed to go I try to speak and say words that are fancy But something in that Just isn’t me 
So I say 
We’re doing okay We’re doing okay You’re not normal I’m not perfect But I like it that way You’re not like other boys But I’m not like other girls I’ve got poison You’ve got worries But I’m working Take you worries and We’ll be okay We’ll be okay We’ll be okay
11.
Pour a cup of tea And move along Chamomile kisses On the top of my head Pour a cup of tea And hold my hand As we walk away From Wonderland Herbs herbs herbs and spices Happy birthday where are the surprises vanilla and sugars in the pot Stirring up what I forgot Needles needles wheres the thread How do I keep it all in my bed When I want to break it open Will you keep my body floating pass a cup pass a cup to the next girl pass a cup pass a cup to the next boy 
I’m a bunny rabbit Telling you to break my habit Of running running away I’m a door mouse Sleeping in the teapot Telling you I need a helping hand To escape this tiny house Kisses kisses kisses and hugs Flowers who don’t know my name Tease me for my looks and smile I remember they’ll shrink like violets Sugar cube on the saucer Wants to melt but I won’t let her Boil me down to my bones I’ll pretend we’re going home pass a cup pass a cup to the next girl pass a cup pass a cup to the next boy 
I’m a bunny rabbit Telling you to break my habit Of running running away I’m a door mouse Sleeping in the teapot Telling you I need a helping hand To escape this tiny house So pass a cup Pass a cup Down the line Pass a cup Pass cup Down the line Pass a cup Pass a cup I’ll be fine I’ll be fine
12.
Cheater cheater pumpkin eater Did you think I wouldn’t see her Scent on the bed And her panties on the stairs You should really say your prayers Cheater Cheater How do you feel With your body burning here I’ll take the lighter and the kerosine You’ll regret when you backstabbed me Liar liar I’m big and strong You’re the little piggy When I come along Other girls might pretend But I’m not one you can withstand I’ll blow you down And I’ll eat you up Cheater cheater pumpkin eater Blind deaf dumb I’m not those either Bake you into pumpkin pie Teach you the consequences of a lie Baby Baby Where have you been I think you’re stuck in your skin I’ll help you Take it off Of course it’ll hurt at first Sweetie Sweetie Do you want some lemonade There’s no more sugar But I bet you can handle it Since you’re a little tart today I’ll squeeze you down And drink you up Cheater cheater pumpkin eater Blind deaf dumb i’m not those either Bake you into pumpkin pie Teach you the consequences of a lie (x2)
13.
The song eating piano stole my songs I know that I had one before I sat down But now that I’m here they’re all gone Because the song-eating piano stole my songs Are you trying to hide from it’s claws?
The notes that it hides in it’s little paws?
You can’t escape the grip not today, The keys pull you down pin you to the ground. The music with it’s hypnotic melody That tells you that your song is not meant to be A cruel irony as it sings in your sleep Twisted tongue forgetting a twisted melody 
Give em back Give em back Give back my light Give back my music Give back my delight Give back the notes I gave to you Oh lord What do I do The song-eating piano Ate up you Pound on the keyboard and hum in the air Harder you think the less the music is there Sad when you think of the aborted tunes Sad when you don’t know what to choose The lull of the voice that plays in your head All the little flats and sharps soon are all dead They die in the air and they don’t reach your ears Preying on you stage-frightened fears Give em back Give em back Give back my light Give back my music Give back my delight Give back the notes I gave to you Oh lord What do I do The song-eating piano Ate up you (2) 
I’d sing longer but there’s nothing to say Better give up Try again another day
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released February 1, 2017

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